Trip Report: I Edited My Subconscious on a 1.5g Psilocybin Mushroom Trip

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Oct 06, 2023, 07:12 PM Last Edit: Oct 06, 2023, 07:15 PM by vertibral
Its hard to sum up my first experience on a mushroom trip but suffice it to say I was blown away. I cant believe the whole time this stuff has been legal in Jamaica but i didn't try it due to fear and the stigma around it.

I did research, found a source I trusted and set a day and time to do about 0.6g of psilocybin mushrooms: a safe dose as I was still apprehensive. Like alot of people in Jamaica, i'd done weed and alcohol for a while recreationally. The decision to do mushrooms was more of a desire for a meditative experience rather than recreational experience and to see if I could make break throughs in areas of my life that felt stagnant.

So I set out list of 4 or 5 intentions related to moving forward in life, wrote them on a piece of paper and read them repeatedly. Then I took the 0.6g but after an hour didn't feel much so I did another 0.9gs.

After another 20 mins it definitely started to kick in.

The first sensation is this warm feeling in the centre of the chest above the stomach area. Then my breathing changed somewhat, breaths got deeper and each one felt better and better. After a short while it felt a little scary as I couldn't consciously feel myself breathing but I logically knew I was still breathing.... hard to describe but it was more like I was being breathed rather than I was breathing. Like someone else was doing it.  ;D

With my eyes closed and some music in my headphones I started to see visions. It felt like a mix of actually seeing things and involuntary imagination. Very soon after I started to feel the effects I saw a vision of a dark spirit. This spirit felt familiar and felt strongly related to a feeling of sadness that had always been lurking in the happier times in my life.

I don't consider myself to be depressed person but during happy times there was always a feeling holding me back from being really happy. I would feel like "ok dont get too happy something could go wrong and after all you still haven't achieved your goals in life"

So yeh back to this spirit. I guess a good way to describe it was a spirit of limited happiness. It also felt like the bass frequencies in the song I was listening to was telling me the story about this dark spirit. This is very hard to explain without experiencing it first hand. The entire story of this spirit was contained in, and being generated by, the bass of the song! I could see the spirit standing there in my field of vision (with my eyes closed) just off to the left. A tall dark figure whose overall shape was human but only his eyes where clearly visible.

Im not sure what made me think to do this but I said let me talk to this spirit. Hes always been here and I need him to go. So I spoke both audibly and in my mind telling this spirit to go and never come back. "you cant stay here" i said.

That's when I saw the spirit start to disintegrate into many polygonal shapes. And simultaneously that feeling of there being a limit to joy and happiness, left.  I experienced a kind of joy where the music and thoughts and colours and shapes I was hearing and seeing all got more beautiful and felt alive. I realize now my experience was like a lucid dream where I could consciously direct what was happening and what was happening was I taking place in my subconscious. In effect my directing the dream felt like I was editing my subconscious! It was really an amazing experience and this happened within the first hour of the trip.

Alot more happened over the next 5/6 hours, too much to type here. But that sad feeling of limited joy and happiness has left and hasn't returned ever.

Im always hesitant to encourage other persons to try mushrooms as there is no guarantee someone else's experience will be like mine. But the main takeaway I will share is this: Do not run from negative emotions that may come during a psilocybin trip. The mushrooms are not creating the negative emotion, it is simply magnifying those emotions that have already been in your subconscious. For me the mushrooms personified those feels as people or spirits and allowed my conscious brain to  interact with them, eliminate them and/or balance those thoughts and feelings with other possibilities.

I strongly believe that leaning into any negative emotions that arise during a psychedelic trip makes your trip sooo much more worth it. There really is no such thing as a bad trip on mushrooms and actively exploring negative emotions has been the best way for me to deal with them and ultimately achieve more joy and mental balance.

I also experienced the afterglow effect for a week after the trip: where I left really good, more alert and colours were brighter and music sounded amazing for the whole rest of the week.

This was easily the most profound experience of my life.
"We can begin the restructuring of thought by declaring legitimate what we have denied for so long. Lets us declare Nature to be legitimate. The notion of illegal plants is obnoxious and ridiculous in the first place." - Terence Mckenna

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